After my instinct grove up to write a make a blog as before written i started my blog. I was pretty sure that i would be able to write something. Now i am sitting in front of my computer and dont know what to write.
I speak 4 languages (Sloven like in Slovenia, English, Turkish and German) so I had to decide in which language i am going to write. Since i live in Slovenija sloven could be a good choice but i just live here for 4 years and have no idea how to write correctly in sloven. Once i had to write a letter for getting an internet connection at home, the lady there said i have to write an “Izjava” “Letter” that i really want internet at home, i thought ok maybe she didnt liked my voice so i write it down. For sure i didnt knew how the sloven people write this so i asked “Kaj moram napisati ?” “What do i have to write ?” then she said “Izjava” that i want internet at home, so i wrote with my really ugly handwriting an “Izjava”. I just wrote one line with a few words, something like “bla bla bla i want internet at home” and gave it to her. She almost had an heart attack, she was shocked. She started to tell me about how bad the schools in Slovenija became and people wouldnt be able even to write. Then i explained her as i always do, that bla bla i lived earlier in bla bla and didnt knew bla bla so i do not speak or write sloven very well, then she wrote the “Izjava” instead of me. 🙂 . So i said sloven is no good for me.
I could write in german, i studied a few years german language and literature in “9 Eylul” faculty. The quality of the writings would be same as sloven but without grammatical errors. But i dont like german language so i am not going to write in german.
Turkish is the language which i use for about 25 years so i and will write also in turkish.
English is a beautiful language, even if you speak or write wrong it sounds and looks correct :-).
Now i know which languages i am going to use English and Turkish. Still the problem is and I think it is quite visible i dont know how to write rather than i dont know what to write. Some people which are aware of my problem told that i would gain the skills through writing. I hope so, other vise no one will understand what i am trying to tell. 🙂